I haven’t written much this last week. This is not because nothing is happening; on the contrary, my life seems to have sped up enormously over the last month and is set to continue to do so. I’m in the last few weeks at my current job, preparing to start my new job soon, Pesach (Passover) is now well and truly on the way and – well, I’ve started dating someone new. I have not dated many women and I hadn’t been on a date for four years, so that was quite exciting and, frankly, a bit terrifying. Our first two dates went well, but I’m still terrified that something will go wrong, not least because I felt I said the wrong thing today (I tried to say something reassuring and think it came out like flirting, which wasn’t my intention).
Oh dear, I didn’t mean to write about my dates and somehow it has come out anyway! It’s really on my mind at the moment – I just wish I could look into a crystal ball and know what will happen. But life doesn’t work like that: I don’t believe in fortune tellers and I don’t believe it’s healthy to want to know the future like that. But it is tempting!
The point I was trying to make is that my blog might be on hold for a while as I deal with some of these other things. I think the “Despatches from the Front Line” posts will probably continue, as they are relatively quick and easy ot write and help me to vent my difficult feelings a bit (hence writing about dating anxieties). Judging by the number of likes, they seem to be the most popular part of the blog anyway, so maybe that’s not a bad thing. I’ll see in a month or so how things will work out, once Pesach is out of the way, I have started my new job and perhaps I have a clearer idea of how some other things in my life are going.