I haven’t blogged for nearly a fortnight. I’ve been busy with Pesach and with a Hevria post as well as emailing a couple of new friends I’ve made (frum Doctor Who fans with mental health issues). This isn’t a full post, just a quick update/venting.
Pesach has been better than the last couple of years, but still problematic. I’ve done a couple of questionable things. I guess we all make mistakes, and this is compounded by not being 100% in control of my environment, but I feel bad. Worse, I feel I’ve completely screwed up Pesach and lost my share in the World to Come for (possibly) eating chametz on Pesach. [Redacted.]
I’m worried about big things (Pesach, starting my new job next week) and little ones, too trivial to mention. Somehow the little things seem the most important. I guess my mind is trying to ignore the bigger ones.