I’ve re-started my Doctor Who blog lately (no link as it’s currently under my real name, although that might change). I wrote something as a post for there, but am currently trying to decide whether to submit it on spec to denofgeek.com as it will get a much wider readership and (the real reason) they pay for posts. The worst that can happen is they say no and I put it on my blog anyway, but I’m finding it hard to get the courage and indeed to work out the appropriate way to word the email (do I send the article with it or just a proposal? Not sure). It’s very hard to push myself forward for things.
I got an email from the woman I was dating up to a month ago asking me for Shabbat lunch in a couple of weeks. I said yes, although I’m nervous about it. Normally if I break up with someone or have a crush on someone and it doesn’t work out, I keep my distance for a long time, but I think I’m over her well enough not to worry about that. My shyness and social anxiety are screaming “DON’T GO!!!” but maybe that in itself is reason to go, especially after turning down an invitation last Shabbat. And I’m guessing there will be other people there, so it’s a chance to socialize with other frum people my age, which I generally struggle to do. Pretty much all of my contact with other people (work, shul, shiur) is with people in very different age groups and at different life stages. Who knows, there might even be a frum single woman there (not that I would talk to her let alone ask for her number if there she was there, but I can dream).