Excused

I’ve been excused post-Pesach tidying because I’m too depressed, both in terms of exhaustion and low mood.  I guess it was good that I lasted this long.  I feel a bit bad that I noted the arguments that I had with my parents in the previous post, as it was really just a blip; most of Pesach we survived without much tension.  Considering Pesach stress usually induces at least one meltdown on someone’s part, this was a positive thing.  I edited the previous post (although it didn’t say anything really bad), but I feel bad that I posted it in the first place, particularly as people who get my posts via email will see the original version, not the edited version.

The other thing I feel bad about in that post is that, after over a year, I finally wrote a political post.  These days I’m not much of a party political person in the left-right sense.  I think both sides have a lot to answer for, and beg a lot of questions.  I don’t think I can think of a single political leader who I can really say I admire.  Even Aung San Suu Kyi has become tarnished by the reality of power.  But I am political in the sense of caring about people and wanting the world to be better, but that’s pretty unfocused.  I do also care about my own people, the Jewish people, and our place in the world and particularly about the constant threat of anti-Jewish hatred and violence.  I don’t feel the need to apologise for this, but I do try to keep it away from the blog, as this is really a mental health blog, although it is a Jewish mental health blog, and I think attempts to separate the Jewish people and the Jewish state from the Jewish religion are artificial and question-begging, if not outright antisemitic.  So, although I have been worrying a lot about antisemitism lately, I will try to keep it off the blog.