I’m still all over the place, emotionally. It’s funny how something can be amazingly good and amazingly terrifying at the same time, although I suppose ‘good’ and ‘terrifying’ aren’t opposites, so there’s no reason something can’t tick both boxes at once.
Anyway, totally unrelated to that, I have an article up on Hevria today. It’s not really relevant to the content of the blog (i.e. it’s about my peculiar relationship with Jewish mysticism rather than mental health), but I thought some people here might be interested.
I actually wrote it years ago, intended to pitch it to Hevria, but never had the guts. At the time they weren’t running guest posts so it would have been a bold move on my part. Then it sat on my computer for years until a conversation with one of my non-biological sisters made me remember it. I sent it to her to see what she thought and she said I should submit it. I knew that if I intended to revise it, I would just procrastinate, so I sent it in without really looking at it, which is incredibly brave and impulsive for me (hmm, I was uncharacteristically brave and impulsive with the emotionally-all-over-the-place thing too). And there it is! I do feel a bit funny about something that is so old and not 100% what I feel now going up on the internet, but I suppose I can think of it as a sort of time capsule.