Things done today:
- Tried, for the third day running, to apply for a job at a particular institution, struggled to describe how I meet the criteria, procrastinated, decided the job is at too high a level for my experience and gave up both disappointed and relieved;
- Spoke to my rabbi mentor, a conversation in which I felt I did not really express myself clearly or describe my anxieties;
- Wrote a blog post that somehow got out of hand and turned much more political than I usually feel comfortable posting here;
- Did about thirty minutes of Torah study;
- Went for a fairly brisk thirty-five minute (or so) walk;
- Redrafted another chapter of my Doctor Who book, the first chapter in this draft about which I haven’t had a vague sense of unease.
I feel that today was frustrating, although I can see I did some good things, especially points four to six. I just feel that I should be able to do more, the background level of mild depression notwithstanding. There are so many little (and big) chores that I need to do that just get pushed away constantly, so many religious and family obligations that I feel I’m not meeting and I wish I had more time to spend on my writing. Or maybe it’s that I wish I could give myself permission to spend more time on my writing. I’m not sure that “redrafting” is quite the right word for what I’m doing with the text of my book either; I’m deleting material and making slight changes, but, so far, nothing very significant. That’s probably a sign I’m either doing very well or missing something very wrong.
The DVD of the latest series of Doctor Who arrived, which I wanted anyway, but bought more urgently when I realised I probably should write a chapter on it for my book. I think that it’s too early to really judge this new era, but I suspect a publisher would want me to make the book as up-to-date as possible and any new fans attracted to the programme by Jodie Whittaker will want something on her Doctor. Plus, omitting it leaves me open to the accusation that I don’t see the female Doctor as ‘real’ Doctor Who, which is not the case. I am still on the lookout for a cheap copy of Resolution to bring my collection of TV Who up to date, although I suspect I will have to fork out the full price if I want it in the next month or two. £13.99 for an hour of so-so TV seems a bit much. I think it’s still on iPlayer, but I’m a completist (arguably I get what I deserve if that’s the case, but that’s an argument for another time).