I got up just after 10am again today, although it was more of a struggle, and it’s still a big struggle against depression and exhaustion to actually get going after getting up.  I do feel a sort of societal moral pressure to have more of a morning, as if being a morning person is more respectable than a night owl, which is difficult for me as my depression always makes me nocturnal, a trend reinforced by having a girlfriend living in a time zone five hours behind me.  It doesn’t help that Judaism orientates a person towards being a morning person.  The evening prayers can be said any time during the night, but the morning prayers should really be said in the early hours of the morning.


In terms of activity, today I helped Dad clean the kitchen, did thirty-five minutes of Torah study and went for a thirty-five minute jog (a good one).  I might try to squeeze in a bit more Torah study before bed.  I cooked dinner, a new recipe suggested by E.  I had some trouble with it, so it took quite a while.  That ate into my writing time and I would not normally go jogging on a day when I was cooking too, as they I find both are time-consuming activities, inasmuch as they seem to expand and take more time than I allocate, however much time I leave for them.  However, I wanted to try to run three times a week and I don’t want to run tomorrow, as I’m doing a Zoom Ma’ariv/Mishnah thing in the evening with Dad for his father’s yortzeit (death anniversary) and I didn’t want to risk getting an exercise migraine (more on that tomorrow, I expect).  The result was that I didn’t do much work on my novel: about fifteen minutes on research, reading an article on controlling behaviour in relationships that I think I already looked at last year (I wish the BBC wouldn’t promote months-old articles on the front page of their news site), and half an hour or so of writing after dinner, but I was too tired to really do much, only adding a couple of hundred words and editing what I wrote yesterday.


I Skyped E.  We both miss each other a lot, but we’re running out of stuff to say to each other each day when every day is largely like the last.  Still, we’re talking every day, so it seems like we have a basic level of compatibility and ability to hold a conversation regardless of the circumstances, which is good.


My replacement copy of Life on Mars series two on DVD arrived on Saturday, but it also seems to stick.  So, I’m assuming it’s a problem from the manufacturer,  which may have affected series one too, although not as badly.  It’s still watchable, but it’s frustrating as the image freezes and it can be hard to restart it.  It certainly jerks you out of the world of the story.  It’s a shame, as it’s a very good series.  I hope the sequel series Ashes to Ashes isn’t similarly affected when I get to it.


Pointless euphemism of the day: I got an email from a contact at a job agency (not offering a job, just keeping in touch) and noticed for the first time that she’s a “Talent Attraction Consultant”.  Googling, it looks like this is a common thing and not just a quirk of the agency she works for.  I find this hilariously pretentious.

10 thoughts on “More Lockdown

  1. Thanks for sharing! I think the whole “waking up early=success” thing is definitely a societal pressure I don’t miss from before the pandemic.

    Long distance relationships are tough, my husband and I had one for a while before we got married. Something that helped break up the sameness off talking every day was watching movies together over Netflix and cooking the same meal together over Skype. We’d challenge each other with tough new recipes every week! It was pretty fun!

    Thanks again for sharing, I love learning more about Judaism through your posts!


  2. Thanks for your suggestions! We tried doing shared movies, but I don’t subscribe to any streaming services. I tried to borrow some DVDs from the public library that E. had on Netflix, but we couldn’t find any titles we both had access to and wanted to see. I was thinking of trying to get hold of cheap second-hand DVDs of movies she had on Netflix, but then lockdown happened and we put that idea on the back-burner. We have thought of cooking together, although we haven’t tried it yet.


  3. I think that job title is ridiculous, and it makes me laugh! Thus, I wouldn’t be able to take that person seriously. I’m not good at all with long distance relationships, so you are doing very well from my perspective. I like book discussions, so perhaps you could read the same book and then talk about it? I’ve been a morning person since I had children. I also had a job where I got up at 5:30 every day. I didn’t enjoy that, but I adapted.


  4. What a title! ‘What’s your job?’ ‘I’m a talent attraction consultant.’ 😂
    I find it hard too, to have conversations when really nothing is happening besides mental health and lock down’. I can imagine it’s even more difficult when you can’t communicate face-to-face and can’t do things together. It’s a true relationship test and you both are doing very well as I can read.


  5. I bet the person with that title absolutely hates it. I worked as a recruiter in the past and would have felt embarrassed if they had renamed it that!

    I like Margaret’s idea of reading the same book together. Do you like any games like Scrabble? You could play something together over the Internet and chat side-by-side while you do it.


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